Dec 03 2008
All I want for Christmas
I was listening to this song by Mariah Carey and thinking, what do I really want for Christmas this year. Honestly, my family. I have not spoken with my family in over 6 months and this will be my first holiday season without them. I know this will not happen, because they would never apologize for anything, and I have nothing to apologize for. More so, it is fighting with my crazy psycho mother, and everyone else taking her side. Everyone has rifs with family, I just usually thought it would be with my in-laws. But they have been so great, especially this holiday season. They have truely welcomed me with open arms. As the story goes, I had been having issues with my family for a while, but I was civil and just bit the bullet and was nice. They treated me, my husband and daughter like second class citizens pretty much since my sister had her baby. Which we knew would happen, because she has always been her favorite. My mother pushes everyone away. My father is just a pushover, and my sister as a butt-kisser. I think they were jealous that I am truely happy with my life, and none of them are. Okay, so it was about six months ago, my sister calls me and says “Mom’s been arrested.”. I am totally freaking out, and trying to get a hold of her everyday because no one else in the family would tell me what was going on. Turns out, (she lives in a camper trailer out in the boonies) she was shooting at her neighbors (many acres away) and yelling the world is coming to an end so they called the cops on her. She went to jail, psych ward. When she did get out, and I finally got a hold of her she was pissed at me. Saying I did nothing and I did not love her blah blah. This is bull, and I wrote a blog about it on my myspace. Which apparently my older brother in Montana called and read to her. Which all was true about my past and history and life. But it just pissed her off more. Her last mean words to me were ‘You have no family’, which I replied, “I have family, so don’t you worry about that”. Which totally caught her off guard cause, I never talk back, I’m a pushover just like my father. So she hung up on me, and I have not heard from her since. Everyone else took her side, and I am alone.
